A Distasteful Reflection

It has been a week. First week back in classes, first week back away from home and my cat, 8am's and drama. There are so many things I can sit here and complain about, but what's the use?

I'm not feeling entirely great today, for no reason in particular. I woke up just feeling… bad. No one had upset me, I didn't do anything wrong. My alarm went off at 7:00am and I just did not want to face the world today.

These kinds of days used to completely take over my life. I couldn't go anywhere or talk to anyone or exist outside of my head. They still feel this way. But I was told so much to "suck it up" and "push through it" even when I physically couldn't.

Yet I did it anyway. Because no one gave me a choice.

I don't want to push these negative emotions onto whomever may read this, but I want to tell you I understand. There are days where nothing seems possible for no reason at all. And that is okay. There is no right or wrong here.

Anyway, enough of the personal updates. Here's the professional ones that I can think of.

I'm slowly growing out of my shell on promoting my book and photography. It's hard to start fresh with no clients and no contacts in a new city and I've let that halt me. Along with the fact that I don't see the same amount of "success" that I did when I first started. Plateaus happen, but they're not forever. I've decided to re-start some creative projects. Something to get my mind moving. There is no set direction but I want something aesthetic that allows me to draw in people who WANT to see my work. Something meaningful.

Who knows what will happen today or tomorrow. I can only try my best to forget that I messed up in my 8am class or that the numbers are so disheartening. But I still want to try, and that has to count for something.

Reach out to me and tell me how your week has been. What are YOU looking forward to despite life getting in the way?

Sending love and correct answers

Becca