A Personal Update

Today is the first day of spring quarter for my school. I had to, begrudgingly, get up for an 8am and i've reconfirmed that I am not a morning person.

I've had a rough past couple days in full honesty, things are rocky and I've not been handling it with grace. It's times like these where I really have to watch my actions and my thoughts because just an hour ago, I was debating pulling my book off the shelf because I was feeling so discouraged. To be honest, I still think about that. I'm not as proud of it as I should be and the lack of engagement makes it hard to see its potential.

I have a choice here though. I heard this phrase again the other day and I've found myself thinking of it more and more. "Live like you have the life you want". Yes, it sucks to get started. It's hard and confusing and honestly, discouraging at times. But if you really dislike where you are right now, what is sitting there doing the same things you've always done going to do? Nothing. However, if you act like you already have the things you do, if you act like someone who would be in that position, those small changes will slowly become a reality. Its mathematical almost.

This doesn't magically make all my problems disappear or my emotions to become happy. But its nice to imagine a life where that is the truth.

And I'm currently working on finding that.

I urge you if you're feeling bad, take a step back and re-evaluate how you handle your daily life. Maybe there's one small change you can make that'll make life just that much better.

Remember, you are loved and things will be okay.

I love you!

Becca